“I learned … that inspiration does not come like a bolt, nor is it kinetic, energetic striving, but it comes into you slowly and quietly and all the time, though we must regularly and every day give it a little chance to start flowing, prime it with a little solitude and idleness.”
[Via The Great Work Blog]
This is not just talking to me … it’s SCREAMING!!!
It’s my birthday next Saturday.
The start of my 39th year on Planet Earth.
That scares the crap out of me.
I’m looking at where I am now and wondering: “Is this *it* for me?”
Where will I be in 2 years? 5 Years? 10 Years? Am I stuck in this house forever? Will I ever get married again? Will I ever get to travel overseas? Are my best days a thing of the past? Do I have something to look forward to? How do I make the most of my future?
And I don’t know the answers to these questions.
I had dreams and goals once. I dared to believe.
I got handed a bitter mouthful of disappointment to swallow.
So now what?
I have questions galore but no answers and not much faith in dreaming anymore ..
Would be cool to know where I’m going though.
Before I need a Zimmer frame, that is.
I go quiet.
It’s called Cave Mode, and it’s my coping mechanism when I’m feeling overwhelmed with life, confused about stuff, and just generally stressed. In a personal capacity.
So I stay inside my own head for a while to sort shit out – I take some timeout from communicating with people. This just simplifies the process for me … it cuts out the complicated crap that everyone ELSE is dealing with so that I can focus on my own stuff. AND it stops me from possibly spreading any crap vibes I may have.
Yeah, my head is spinning a bit – there’s a lot going on in there at the moment 🙂
Onwards and upwards
xxx
It’s been a while since my last Sexy Men post, so this is long overdue. “But chefs?” I hear you ask …
Oh yes. Chefs. Seriously.
I mean *really* now – a man who knows his way around the kitchen – what’s NOT sexy about that?
And isn’t there just something completely delicious abut a man preparing food for you?
Plus. Have you seen these guys work? It’s HAWT! Where else can you watch a display of such infectious amounts of passion, coupled with gentle finesse and complemented by just the right amount of aggression?
Huh?
Riiiight!
So, so without further ado, here is my list of sexy food geeks – all oozing charisma, ambition and excitement …
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MARCO PIERRE WHITE
*swoon*
LURVE this man – watch him in action on BBC L on Wednesdays in “Hell’s Kitchen”
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KERRY SIMON
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TYLER FLORENCE
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GARY RHODES
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JEAN CHRISTOPHE NOVELLI
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JAMES MARTIN
If you ask me what I want for my birthday, there’s no way I’ll tell you wah!
Don’t ask me why. That’s just how I roll.
So … for those of you who want to get me stuff for my birthday (4 April – just saying), here’s my list:
And if you’re free that Saturday night, perhaps we can hook up for a drink somewhere?
Kthnx.
So to speak …
My weekend took a radical nose-dive on Saturday evening when my body decided it was going to become ill on me. So much for trying to “relax and enjoy”. Meh.
Anyway, I’m up and about today, still feeling woozy and I don’t have an appetite yet but let’s just see how it goes. This horse may buck yet …
