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So it’s Sunday

I have a love-hate relationship with Sundays.

On the one hand, I relish the opportunity to be completely lazy, to be able to do absolutely bugger all for the day and not feel guilty about it. And I particularly welcome the silence of Sundays on the weekends that the kids are not here, like today. Normally, their music is blasting from each of their rooms and my ears can’t really handle the resulting chaotic mashups (my ears are ridiculously sensitive.) Neither can my head for that matter. Actually, it seriously stresses me out but I don’t say anything about it to them because I want them to be able to play their own tunes. I don’t want to be one of those nagging, whiney moms who are always saying “KEEP IT DOWN!”

But on the other hand, being alone at home on Sundays is so boring for me! I feel too damn lazy to do anything about it though. Gah. And then I get down because I’m feeling bored and lonely and unproductive … and so the deterioration begins …

I can’t remember a Sunday that didn’t turn pear-shaped! Seriously, some way or another, no matter what, Sundays ALWAYS find me becoming frustrated and stressed and depressed … from about this time in the afternoon onwards.

So I’m sitting here at home alone now. Until now, I’ve kept myself busy with housework (I’ve now completely cleaned up the lounge and dining room), not *daring* to really relax or sit down because then I know the loneliness will set in and I may just turn into a psycho bitch. Again.

I confuse myself. I *know* I’m an introvert and that being around people is extremely draining for me and yet, when I *am* alone like this I totally hate it. WTF? *sigh*

The kids will be back at about 5 this afternoon and for a change, I’d like to have a cool Sunday evening with them, one without drama or tension. I’m hoping that all their homework will have been done over the weekend, that there’s no last minute panic to get something sorted. That totally freaks me out!

I’m holding all digits for a chilled Sunday evening with good vibes.

What to do now? Hmmm … I’m going to HAVE to relax a bit now dammit – I’m pooped from all the cleaning, sorting and organising over the last 2 days. I’ve got 3 books I’m busy with, so I’ll probably just tuck into one of those to keep my mind busy until the kids get back. Or perhaps I’ll have a nap … dunno. Blegh.

Two precious hours

Today I was allowed to fetch Son#1 from the clinic to bring him home so that he could pack a few of his things up, and take them back there …

When I arrived and asked what time I should return him, thinking that we perhaps had 30 minutes at the most, the sweet nurse on duty whom I had never met before told me that I could keep my boy at home for 2 hours – that we should have some lunch and chill for a while (yes, she said “chill”). I could have kissed her ūüôā

So we had 2 hours together, and even though he was in a closed mood, not really up to doing much or saying anything, that time was precious for all of us. We picked up some lunch from McDonalds, we came home to eat and chill for a while. Son#2 was happy to see him again, and we listened to music and pottered around, just appreciating the small taste of “normal” family life we had been allowed.

Two very special hours on this beautiful Sunday afternoon. My heart is warm.

Sunday randomness

It’s been a pretty chilled weekend so far.

Yesterday was a bit of a write-off for me. After spending the whole day doing the couch potato thing, trying to keep warm and recover from a vicious tummy bug, I’m happy to say that I’m feeling 100% better today. Must have just been a 24hour thing, thank goodness … So, I’m tip top and ready to dive into some domestic chores and a bit of paperwork that I need to take care of. I haven’t done the Dreaded Weekly Grocery Shop yet – I reckon there’s enough for us to make do with for another few days, so it can wait.

I have a (rare) couple of hours to myself before the Motley Crue arrives back from spending the weekend with their dad, so I’m enjoying the peace and quiet until then.

I’m busy downloading the latest Nine Inch Nails album, The Slip, at the moment. If you’re interested, they have made it available for free on their website and you can grab it here.¬† And I finally got around to ripping a few CD’s that I bought ages ago but haven’t listened to yet, so I’m having a bit of a musical afternoon catching up on all my new tunes.

Next week is another hectic week on the work front – I have no idea why we are so busy at this time of the year, it’s a bit unusual – so I also need to get psyched for all of that … make sure I’m on top of exactly what needs to be done, when and how. That means LISTS – I’m big on lists. I have such a shockingly bad memory; I have to write EVERYTHING down! I’d be completely lost without my lists.

I also need to think about setting up my new machine this week, that’s going to be a HUMUNGOUS job and I ain’t looking forward to how much time it’s going to take.¬†First of all, I have to figure out how to get it¬†hooked up on the LAN, then¬†I have so many apps to install, so many¬†usernames and passwords to source for FTP, email accounts and various other apps, it’s going to take ages before I can get it all sorted and finally ditch this old laptop.¬†

The iMac runs Windows as well which is a really good thing – although I started off in DTP and web design on a Mac (back in the day when Photoshop didn’t even have layers!), it’s been about 8 years since I last used one and I’d probably be hopelessly lost. It’ll be fun to poke around on the Mac side, and useful to check websites on another platform but I think that’s just about all I will use it for. All the other machines are PC’s and we’d land up having major compatibility issues of I went the Mac route now. It’s rather a sexy looking machine, don’t you think?

Other than that, not much on the agenda … reply to some personal emails, catch up on my blog feeds, potter around in Facebook … not very exciting =)