Yes – that revolting scumbag who manipulates my mind every evening must DIE DIE DIE!
He spins dreadful stories in my head telling me that I’m lonely, bored, uninteresting and unlovable and the only thing worth doing at all is stuffing my face every night.
PUHLEAZE!
The Monster has been so convincing of late that I’ve managed to pile on 3 kgs in the last 3 weeks. That’s hideous … So much for Operation Yellow Bikini hey? Jeez, how kuk do I feel right now!
So, how do I kill the evil bugger and how do I find the mojo I need to combat his trickery?
Blegh.
I guess step one should be for me to get back into that book Sir G bought for me – “How to Overcome Binge Eating”. And I need to do it soon because this is getting waaaay out of control. It’s a vicious lose-lose cycle too, *obviously*.
The more I eat, the worse I feel, the more I eat, the worse I feel …
He seriously needs to FOAD!
Ugh, yes I started with eating disorders when I was about 11 so I totally understand. On the whole I think I am quite balanced now, except for the occasional visits from the cookie monster. There is hope!
There’s definitely truth to that. I’ve also gone through those ups and downs!
Yes, it IS better to eat regularly. Of course. But it’s not easy when you have a poor relationship with food. And it’s not something one can even comprehend unless you’ve experienced some kind of eating disorder – it simply isn’t in your frame of reference to understand. I know, Sir G doesn’t relate to it at all – he’s NEVER had a problem with food or eating …
Anyway, there has to be a way out of the cycle … I’ll keep going till I find it 🙂
I agree with dieting being a trigger though, it seems to set off the whole cycle of denial, hunger, loss of control, guilt, self destruction etc. Better to eat regularly I guess.
Some interesting stuff in there. But yes, I think the solutions chapters will be most interesting!
@Po … I’m not sure I *can* kill him. But I bloody well need to try. This is just insane behaviour!! And naturally, it’s making me feel even WORSE. Bah!
I’ve read a few chapters of the book already:
http://www.justbcoz.co.za/headspace/2008/05/13/the-first-chapter/
http://www.justbcoz.co.za/headspace/2008/05/22/overcoming-binge-eating-chapter-2/
http://www.justbcoz.co.za/headspace/2008/06/01/overcoming-binge-eating-chapter-3/
http://www.justbcoz.co.za/headspace/2008/06/08/overcoming-binge-eating-%e2%80%93-chapter-4/
Uh, I love the cookie monster, please don’t kill him?! I have exactly the same problem, but I love him too much to say goodbye just yet.
I would love to know how to stop overeating, but I think I damaged my body’s control and stop functions after years of eating disorders. So I am thinking the cookie monster will be my friend for a while!