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to become detached or withdrawn <disconnects into dark moods>

When I woke up this morning I was so optimistic about the day ahead, and I was determined to make it a good one. But now I find myself in the kukkest of moods, feeling very “off” and definitely in a don’t-mess-with-me frame of mind.

I know why though. I’m feeling seriously isolated and disconnected from the world at the moment.

I have not left the house in 10 days now (I shit you not) and I’ve only seen 1 new face in all that time. I am thoroughly bored of staring at these walls day in and day out. I’m bored of seeing the same faces and hearing the same voices every day. Sorry if that offends the people that I work with, but it’s not about you, it’s me mmk?

So I’m sitting here thinking that I’m probably way to overdressed for my dining room AGAIN and I REALLY want to get out of here sometime today and be in a different place, see some new faces, take in some new smells, hear some new sounds, anything …

Sheesh, at times like this I really miss driving to work – I don’t even have that time anymore to be out on the road, to be part of a community of people all trying to achieve the same thing. I miss seeing new faces and people watching.

Where to go? What to do?

Obviously I can’t spare too much time – I have quite a bit of work to get through but I have to get out, even if it’s just for one fricken hour! Perhaps I’ll go to Cavendish, even though I detest shopping and shopping malls. I need to stock up on a few personal items and I would like to check out some new music that’s been recommended to me. I could even go and sit on my own in a coffee shop or something – I’ve never done that before.

Not exactly ground-breaking stuff though, is it?