Hmm … I’m just kind of going through the motions in my life right now and not feeling very motivated to put in more energy or effort. Perhaps it’s just because I’m exhausted. I haven’t been sleeping much for well over a month now and I’m starting to feel like I’m running on empty. Buggeration! I don’t know WHAT the problem is, but I keep waking every 2 hours or so – wide-bloody-awake – and then I can’t get back to sleep. It’s damn annoying, I tell you.

I was chatting to Sir G about my “stuck”, going-nowhere-listlessness this morning and he reckons that a lot of it has to do with this house. I think I agree with him. There’s terrible energy here, it’s completely draining! So I need to think more seriously about moving. I put it out of my mind because I believed that I just didn’t have the finances to make it happen, but perhaps it’s time to just bite the bullet and go for it? OMG, I don’t even want to think about what a logistical nightmare that’s going to be!!

In the meantime though, what I *can* do is make sure I get out the house more. I seriously don’t do that enough. I had such a good time at Alba Lounge on Saturday evening – it was so great to meet up with everyone (and to meet some new people), and it once again reminded me how good it is for me to get out and about and hang out with friends … I’m going to make a REAL effort to do more of that. I’m going to go out to movies and eat out at restaurants and invite people to join me! I’m going to be forward and ask people if I can come visit them (wah!) and just generally make sure I’m not stuck between these four walls day after day after day after …

You get the picture, right?

Mmk.

I haven’t really done any of that stuff before because well, I’m basically a single parent at home now and I’ve never felt comfortable leaving my kids at home on their own. As you know, Son#1 doesn’t live here anymore so I’ve been even *more* wary about going out and leaving Son#2 by himself. But, I’ve been chatting to a few people about this and they all seem to reckon that he’s 15 now and old enough to be left on his own for some time, so I can go out for a bit.

So, this is a turning point for me. I’m taking the bull by the proverbial horns and forcing myself to get out of my staying-at-home-all-the-time rut.

Now, I just need some sleep and then I’m good to go.

Wish me luck!

Constant fatigue. Burning back pain. Muscle spams. Non-stop headache.

All because I’m stressed out, according to my doc.

I have to:

1. go back to physio
2. get massages twice daily
3. use a topical pain relief gel
4. take some seriarse pain killers
5. use a heat compress twice daily
6. take an anti-anxiety med at night (Lyrica – hectic!)
7. rest for 5 days

Ya … so perhaps thinking about trying to buy a new house right now is not such a great idea!

Only TWO hours till we go off for our Christmas lunch and then we’re officially closed for 3 weeks!!!

YAYNESS

OMG, I’m sooooo tired today. Again. Went to the tweetup at Alba Lounge in the V&A Waterfront last night to hook up with some tweeple and meet some Vaalies – @SnowgooseSA and @nickjackson – down on holiday. And it was a very cool evening! Thanks to @andrevr for keeping me in drinks hehe … next time, it’s my turn, don’t forget!? Who else was there? @obox, @stii, @FeistyFemale, @ChristopherM and Fe, @_enzo … Man, I love these tweetups – it’s just brilliant to see these guys that I interact with online every day In Real Life!

But I stayed up waaaay past my bed time, got home at about 11.30, found a rather sad looking little sausage roll in my fridge to eat and then crashed at 12.30. And I overslept. Again. Sheesh … I really don’t know why I even bother to set my alarm these days!

Anyway, here we are, just 2 hours away from HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!

Hoping I can make it through Christmas lunch without passing out and planting my face in my food or something …

I’ll catch you all later – it’s time to set up those beautiful things called Out Of Office Autoresponders.

YeeeHaaaa!

Thank Gary the Duck.

I am so ended! Mmk, I did get zero zzz’s last night (thanks to dogs, cats, mosquitoes, alarms and telephones) which certainly doesn’t help matters but I’m TIRED TIRED TIRED.

This year, although ultimately good, has been a tough one and the last 6 months have been murderously challenging!

So yeah, as much as I LOVE my work and all the fabulous people I share my business with, I am REALLY looking forward to the upcoming break … getting time to myself AND my house back for a while hehe …

Over the next 3 weeks I intend to do loads of reading, chilling at the pool, spending time with my boys, making some jewellery (haven’t done that for years!), watching a few movies (Madagascar 2 looks like fun), sleeping, watching tons of cricket, and perhaps even a bit of painting. I also have some projects I want to work on, but it’s in-house stuff so there’s no pressure and sinking my teeth into some funky new site design is just what I feel like

So, today is basically our last day – tomorrow is our Christmas lunch and then it’s a wrap for 2008! Woohoooooooooo!

Right now, I’m just taking care of a few small things, then its Christmas tree time (I’m SO not in the mood … the whole lights story just kills me bah!) and then I think I’m going to need a little snooze before tonight’s tweetup at the Waterfront or I’m just not going to make it! I’m looking forward to seeing everyone again and meeting some new tweeps

*yawn*

Laterz
xxx

1. Grotesque weather! It’s like the middle of winter again grrrr.
2. Headache.
3. And I hate being cold.
4. Headache.
5. Not enough sleep last night – I kept waking up every hour or so. Most annoying.
6. Headache.
7. I got smacked in the face by Son#1 when I tried to wake him up this morning! Shame, I think he must have been in a really deep sleep and I scared the crap out of him.
8. Headache.
9. It’s “that” time of the month. Blegh.
10. Headache.
11. Never mind a Fat Day, I’m having a Feeling Like A Bloated Pregnant With Triplets Hippopotamus Day!
12. Headache.
13. Damn hair!! I really can’t control this mane anymore. I’ve had it! I’m going to break tradition and organise a second trip to the hairdresser this year.
14. Headache.

Meh.

But on the flip side, we’ve just had a very productive 2-hour meeting with a Client – an old friend whom I haven’t seen for AGES – so that was great. I love her energy

And now I need to pop some more Panado and bury myself in wwwork … lots to do!

Happy Hump Day
xxx

Meh. I did not get my full 8 hours of beauty rest last night (yeah, some of us really need this you know hah) because I only got to bed after midnight, so today may see me struggling to keep my eyes open … bring on the coffee please!

Why was I up so late?

Well … don’t faint (!) … I went out again!!

Yessireeeee

Chris organized a little get together with some of his Cape Town blogger pals at a place called “Neighbourhood” in Long Street (super venue, BTW). So Sir G and I went along to meet up with some new peeps and to reacquaint ourselves with some now-getting-familiar-with peeps (helloooo David and Peter!) It was very cool to FINALLY meet my dragon friend, Wogan May, along with Christopher John Combrink, Rox and a few others (I’m shocking with names, please forgive me if I’ve left you out.)

We had a bite to eat there – Sir G and I both ordered the Cajun Calamari dish – and the food was pretty good. Other people ordered burgers and steak rolls and everyone seemed pretty happy with their dinner. Neighbourhood serves the FUNKIEST chips ever, called “curly fries” … seriously long and yeah, *curly* chips hehehe

It was a cool evening all in all – so nice to get out again =) And it was a lovely surprise to run into @Cluckhoff who was there with her friends for a poker evening. I was able to repay her the dosh she lent us when Sir G and I found ourselves penniless at @FeistyFemale’s birthday party last week.

There was one teeny little glitch in the evening … *cough* … my bra decided to come unhitched! OMG, I felt the bloody strap undo itself and panicked! I whispered to Sir G: “Er, I need your help please.” He looked seriously worried but when he heard what the problem was, he had to stifle peals of hysterical laughter! So he, ummm, “shielded” me all the way to a space in the venue that was unoccupied (which happened to be the pool room), hiked up my top and re-attached the offending strap! I was dying WAH! Imagine if somebody had decided to play a game of pool right then???? Anyway, LUCKILY he got it all sorted for me before anyone could walk in and catch us in a VERY compromising position *whew*!!

So … cow_grrrl is now getting out and about quite a bit these days hey? Thanks for organizing last night Chris

Mmk, I need to make myself a big-ass cup of strong coffee and put my head down – 2 deadlines to meet today and a bunch of admin stuffs.

*yawn*

Have a rocking Friday everyone!

And to Son#1 – good luck with your Science exam today my boy xxx