Day One

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Posted June 29th, 2009 by justBcoz in Gym []
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Right. Here we go …

Today is the start of my new nutrition and training programme.

Ok, ok, I *know* you’ve heard this before and yes, I have had a few false starts over the last few months but this weekend was the turning point for me. On Saturday morning I broke down in tears over how much weight I’ve put on – 12 kgs in the last year (I shit you not), which is a LOT on a 163cm frame! I bawled about how I can’t fit into any of my clothes anymore, sobbed about feeling like crap all the time and slumped to a new all time low about how awful I look.

ENOUGH!

Today. THIS day, things change.

What makes it different this time? Well, apart from hitting complete rock bottom, I have enlisted some help. I have asked Sir G to get involved and give me a hand. I’ve tried a few times by myself and failed miserably. I don’t want to fail again. I want to, want to, want to damn well succeed this time and if that means I have to have someone else watching, pushing, encouraging, policing and tracking my progress, then so be it! I can’t do *everything* by myself, I have decided (obviously), so I swallowed my pride and asked Sir G to assist. Mmk, he’s not really a pushy person at all and I *do* need rather a strong hand at times, so we’ll see how it goes. But he’s been training again for about a month now and he’s already packed on about 3kgs of muscle and can I just say … PHWOAR!!!!

There’s no way I’m going to tell you what I weigh now, or what my measurements are – I’m just far too embarrassed! But, all in all, I’m optimistic about my transformation. I feel different already – my mind is in the right place and I committed to spending the next 6 months getting in the best shape I possibly can. I really owe it to myself.

Of course, the hardest part for me is going to be the night time snacking – that is my weak spot! Aaargh … to NOT lie in bed and nibble on crap is going to be sooooo difficult. But, I’m just going to have to suck it up and give the Cookie Monster the finger. I’m not going even one more DAY feeling miserable about this stupid bloody weight story.

I want to feel good about myself again;

I want more energy;

I want to fit into my clothes;

And, DAMMIT, I want to look good out of them too ;-)

justBcoz
  1. Sir G says:

    By summertime, you are going to be in awesome shape!

    I’m not going to let you make excuses – its going to be clever eating and lots of exercise. Its going to be hard in the beginning to get the fitness up, and create new eating patterns – but once that initial hump is over – It’ll start becoming fun (i hope!). And I’m also positive that eating better will drastically improve your health and energy levels. Its going to be awesome!

    I’m not really a drill sergeant type, but I’m going to do my best to make sure the ball keeps rolling until new habits and routines become second nature and then hopefully your training and eating will develop and become something more personal to you and really self-sustainable – something independent of me monitoring you – more of a lifestyle thing and not a weight loss programme.

    Im not even going to say that you can do it…because you will do it :)

    I’m really looking forward to you breaking out that yellow bikini come summer :P

  2. Briget says:

    I.KNOW.EXACTLY.HOW.YOU.FEEL!!!

    I was were you are right now 4 weeks ago.. I took a look in the mirror and realised that I am letting things get out of hand..
    I then made out a mealplan for myself that I knew would work.. enlisted the help of SexyG and got down with it.

    I havent blogged about it because I will only officially announce it once I am semi PORNO hot again..

    So 4 weeks down and I have, according to my scale, lost 8kg’s!!!

    If I can do it.. I just know that YOU can do it!! I still have 4 more weeks left on my eating program.

    If you need any help or motivation give me a call.. I know how hard it is and we can cry into our celery sticks together ;-)

  3. SheBee says:

    Woo! Seems like you’re very determined my friend. I so look forward to seeing you feeling happier within and with your home too. Either way, I still think you’re the prettiest lady I know. And I have a petition of people who’ll back me up :)

    HAVE FUN!

  4. justB[coz] says:

    O.M.G.

    8kg’s?????? What the hell are you eating? Worms?

    Wow, Briget … SERIOUSLY well done!!

  5. justB[coz] says:

    Lol … thank you Bee … dunno about “fun”, this is going to be hard graft but yes, I ARE DETERMINED!

  6. Briget says:

    Thank you… still have a long journey ahead of me.. but I am determined to look good no matter what!

    Worms have too much protein.. not allowed ;-)

    Hahahahahaha!

  7. Hanlie says:

    You can do this! It’s so worth it!

    I’m in a community of people who really support one another (The Healthy You Challenge) and you don’t have to reveal weight or measurements – it’s all about being accountable and supporting others in the same boat.

  8. Dad says:

    Sound as if you are in the right place so all I can say is “GO FOR IT”. Eat lots of fruit and raw vegetables and try green smoothies.
    Hope you are starting to sleep a bit better.

  9. justB[coz] says:

    Last night was a disaster. That is all.

  10. Good luck with that. I going on holiday in SA next week for three weeks. After that it would be back to the gym for me.

  11. justB[coz] says:

    Hey thanks, Spear … it appears that I’m going to need all the luck I can get. Meh.

    Enjoy your holiday in SA – pack some warm clothes, it’s bloody freezing at the moment!

  12. angel says:

    Very cool! I have to start getting my backside into shape too so I can start looking for a wedding dress!

  13. cath says:

    Okay. See now. I started this on Monday too. I have HAD IT with feeling like im carrying around an extra wheel, in case I get a puncture.

    We’re all in this together then. The night time snack is MY worst too. Its just soooo good.

    Am trying. just the best I can do is try!

    Good luck my Suetjie! xxx

  14. Wow it t5akes something to admit what you have and I take my hat off to you, now heres to you sticking by your decision to do something about it and I am sure that you will be getting all the support from us here.. So no snacking at night a big no no.

  15. Angel says:

    Good luck to you. Very brave post. And you have lots of support! :)
    Also started the whole “better eating, being more active lifestyle” since moving to Nigeria almost a month ago and feeling better about myself already. Although, standing outside in the heat here can produce more sweat than a 2 hour gym session, so that could be why… :) In a couple of months we can all report back as the skinny bitches we’re supposed to be! :)

  16. cath says:

    I failed BADLY last night due to (a) being cold and (b) comfort food.

    But, that shant deter me from my bandwagon.

    Mwah

  17. justB[coz] says:

    mmk … well, despite my best efforts to eat properly for the last couple of days, I’m not doing very well. See next blog post …