Posted November 14th, 2008 by justBcoz in Personal, Work []
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For so long, while I was drowning in self-pity over the awful events that had taken place in my life, I completely lost interest in just about every aspect of my life, including work.

Actually, for a while there, I COULDN’T work – my mind was elsewhere, dwelling on hurts and frustrations. But I knew I couldn’t do that forever without risking the one thing that allowed me to survive financially – my business. So I had to make a determined effort to start working again.

Hells, it was a real struggle for me to get out of bed each morning and find the energy to work a full day. Even when I managed, I wasn’t focused. I was on autopilot, just plodding along, following the path of least resistance because I simply didn’t have the mental or emotional or physical strength to explore new avenues or attempt to tackle some of the ideas I had previously cooked up to grow my company by creating new revenue streams.

Well, guess what?

That is changing. Rapidly!

If you’ve been reading my blog for any length of time, you’ll know that I’ve talked a lot about the need for me to move forward, not only in work, but also in my personal life. But that I’ve really struggled to do this, especially on the work front. Despite my best intentions, I was still feeling stuck due to lack of time and staff and as a result, my ideas and motivation never seemed to evolve into anything concrete. So I felt like I wasn’t really getting anywhere … I had all these plans to start new things, explore new technologies, offer new services and build some sexy stuff, but they just never got off the ground. Man, it was frustrating!

Until now :-)

As you know, I’ve recently started hiring more staff and investing in growing my team, both in numbers and skill. This was a big step for me – I had been understaffed for a long time and finding the right people to fit into our rather “homely” environment has never been an easy task and it was one that I delayed because I really didn’t feel up to the time and effort that it takes. Now that I have finally started doing this and hired some brilliant new talent, things are REALLY happening :D

I am so damn amped for work again, I feel like I did 5 years ago!!! Do you have any idea of how awesome that is? I now wake up every morning, rearing to go – I can’t WAIT to dive into my day and work. It’s actually FUN again! Wow.

To FINALLY have the resources I need to help the business back onto it’s feet to take on the kind of work I’ve been wanting to do for ages, and to start on the projects that have been on the back burner for years now is just the most brilliant thing imaginable!!

I feel like SUCH a load has been taken off me … that heavy burden of inactive staleness has now been replaced with the energizing freedom of new activity. Fantastic :D

And it’s spilling over into other areas of my life too!

I mean seriously, I NEVER thought *I’d* be the one to organize any social events. Good grief!! And jetting off to Durban to hook up with and stay with people I’ve never met, justBcoz? WTF?


So today is Friday … it’s the day I normally look back on the week and think: “Shit. I got nowhere again. My life is ridiculously dull. My business is still stuck in the Stone Age. I’m bloody miserable about it all. I feel like a failure.”

Not today.

Today I look back on the last week and think: “WOOHOO!!!! Chickadoodle, you’re doing it! You’re on the right track, you’re surrounded by awesome people (good move grrrl!), you’re moving forward in both in your business and in your personal life. At last!”

And I just HAVE to add here that a very large part of my new zest for life in general can be attributed to YOU. I’m not kidding. Interacting with you here, and on Twitter, Skype and Facebook, has had the most incredibly positive effect on me … I’m not going to get all mushy right now, but you I just wanted to let you know that without these social elements of the web, and your involvement in my life (even the most mundane aspects), I would have continued to feel stuck, bored, depressed and pointless.

So thank YOU for being there for me, for inspiring me – all of you! You guys rock and I have a special place in my heart for each an every one of you.

Happy Friday my friends!


  1. StevenMcD says:

    YAY! Go cow_grrrl go!

    So happy for you, and it seems you’re making your employee’s lives happy ones as well :)

  2. Dad says:

    It is soooo good to hear you talking in such a positive way after so many years of battling through life day by day.
    Don’t expect to stay on such a high as there will always be ups and downs – that is just how life is – just aim to have a hell of a lot more ups than downs.
    You have been fortunate, blessed, lucky to have been surrounded by some special people to help get you through to where you are today and I am sure they will carry on in to the future. To them – they know who they are – I also say THANK YOU!

  3. justB[coz] says:

    @Steven … I try :D

    I know that my employees are my best assets. It’s so worth my while to look after them really well!

    @Dad … Absolutely, ups and downs will always happen but the downs are becoming less frequent and less intense. YAY!

    You’re so right about me being blessed – I have a LOT to be thankful for …

  4. Jeanette says:

    That’s fantastic!!

  5. Amod Munga says:

    Go cow_grrrl!
    Rock out with your…
    Go cow_grrrl!

  6. justB[coz] says:

    @Jeanette … Isn’t it just? Feels LEKKA!!

    @Amod … WAHA!! phr0ggi, I don’t know where you came from but dude, you make me laugh!

  7. cath says:

    No Sue, its all you. Your power and drive, and above all, your brave honesty, is what makes your life yours, and what makes you beautiful. Your confidence has always been within you, its just needed time to come to the fore. And look at you, you freaking brave chick.



  8. cath says:

    @Dad Have been meaning to say, I hereby promise to take very good care of Sue. I know it must be weird to have that said to you but I mean it. Love you to bits Sue and can’t wait to see you X

  9. cath says:

    SheBee asked me to post this:
    Dear Suetjie,

    I adore you. I adore how open and honest and vulnerable and brave you are on your blog. I have seen before my very own eyes how you’ve grown in the last few months. When I read on twitter you were whore-ganising the tweet up to be, my eyes nearly imploded with pride and surprise.

    You have come so far. You are such an inspiration. You are someone I am so happy I know and have in my “life”.

    So, soon, when you break out the pom poms and… oh I dunno, apply for world domination, please remember that I will be your numero uno not only fan, but one of those people you just won’t be able to shake off very easily either.

    Lots of love,

  10. justB[coz] says:

    @cath *no words* XXX

  11. justB[coz] says:

    @SheBee … oh gosh … you’ve got me all teared up and lump-in-throatish …

    Shit Bee, I don’t know what to say!!! THANK YOU!!!

    Thank YOU (and Cath, amongst others) for being an inspiration to ME, and for allowing me to be honest … to know that I can be 100% real in this space and not get dissed in any way (which is what I was used to before) is totally liberating. And healing. It’s a big part of what’s allowed me to come this far. I was terribly afraid of speaking my mind before but through this blog and the incredible support I receive from awesome people like you, I have been able to slowly but surely rediscover my voice!

    You are loved and appreciated Bee XXX

    And I SO can’t wait to finally meet you next week w00t!!

  12. CrazyDog says:

    Just found your blog today…very cool…ur so real about urself…very brave.