You could have kept it from me. That would have been so easy.
Mmk, perhaps not … I seem to have acquired a new-found hyper-sensitivity for knowing when people are hiding information from me, or when things are not quite what they seem. My gut is working overtime lately, talking to me like never before.
Anyway, I just want to tell you that I am both pleased and proud. Not of what happened this weekend – that wasn’t good – but of you being strong enough to tell me about it. And for asking me to take you to an NA meeting immediately so you could get help dealing with it. That shows amazing spirit and maturity, and you are slowly but surely earning back my trust and respect … the two things that I once thought were lost forever.
So that’s where you are now. Being a grown up, accepting that this was a mistake you made and getting support from people who are intimately familiar with what you’re experiencing. I know you are confused about how you feel about it all and not too sure what to do, but you’ve made the right and wise choice for yourself tonight.
Thank you for your honesty. Thank you for being frank with me … from the bottom of my heart. I can deal with most most things, but deceit and deception are intolerable to me and I completely detest the barriers they create.
I love you
XXX
When that little something in you says ” watch out” take heed and take a SECOND OR THIRD look.
@Dad … yes, it was bullshit! And I think the way things have worked out with the kids just proves that!! The X has realised and admitted to me only today that he “got it wrong” with regards to Son#1 and that he doesn’t want to do the same with Son#2. To hear that was huge for me. It gave me reassurance that my instincts were correct all along …
But it doesn’t mean that I have to go rushing with guns blazing into all situations – time and thought is still required for me to reach a point of balance and wisdom.
@JustBcoz “years and years of being told that I was over-reacting to everything and that my opinion didn’t count for much made me seriously doubt myself.”
You have to realize by now that that was all bullshit. There is nothing wrong with your instincts (gut feeling). What you have to do now is trust in them and follow through. Easier said than done but it does become easier as you get older and understand how much time and energy get wasted.
Lots of Love & Hugs Dad.
@Steven and @Amod Thanks guys … going through a bit of a rough time at the moment so hugs are very welcome 🙂
@Dad … This is indeed a recurring theme in my life at the moment. I was actually just chatting to Sir G about that very fact yesterday and how I need to start acting sooner when I pick up vibes that tell me something is wrong. I’ve started doing that in the last couple of days, learning to trust myself a bit more and it’s helping a lot. It’s taken me a while to get to the point where I feel like I have the confidence to do this though – years and years of being told that I was over-reacting to everything and that my opinion didn’t count for much made me seriously doubt myself.
@JustBcoz” but deceit and deception are intolerable to me and I completely detest the barriers they create.”
This is a recurring theme running through your life at the moment. Maybe you have been too trusting in the past and it is now time not to take everything at face value. When that little something in you says ” watch out” take heed and take a second or third look.
That sentence above is so me its unbelievable!! My whole life has revolved around the “TRUST” factor.
What he said.
nothing to say, sending *HUGS*