DISCONNECT:
to become detached or withdrawn <disconnects into dark moods>
When I woke up this morning I was so optimistic about the day ahead, and I was determined to make it a good one. But now I find myself in the kukkest of moods, feeling very “off” and definitely in a don’t-mess-with-me frame of mind.
I know why though. I’m feeling seriously isolated and disconnected from the world at the moment.
I have not left the house in 10 days now (I shit you not) and I’ve only seen 1 new face in all that time. I am thoroughly bored of staring at these walls day in and day out. I’m bored of seeing the same faces and hearing the same voices every day. Sorry if that offends the people that I work with, but it’s not about you, it’s me mmk?
So I’m sitting here thinking that I’m probably way to overdressed for my dining room AGAIN and I REALLY want to get out of here sometime today and be in a different place, see some new faces, take in some new smells, hear some new sounds, anything …
Sheesh, at times like this I really miss driving to work – I don’t even have that time anymore to be out on the road, to be part of a community of people all trying to achieve the same thing. I miss seeing new faces and people watching.
Where to go? What to do?
Obviously I can’t spare too much time – I have quite a bit of work to get through but I have to get out, even if it’s just for one fricken hour! Perhaps I’ll go to Cavendish, even though I detest shopping and shopping malls. I need to stock up on a few personal items and I would like to check out some new music that’s been recommended to me. I could even go and sit on my own in a coffee shop or something – I’ve never done that before.
Not exactly ground-breaking stuff though, is it?
@Mark … my eating has been good too!! Mmk, I *may* have snacked on a few too many almonds last night, but at least it wasn’t JUNK! And I haven’t had any coke, sweets or other crap at all.
@StevenMcD … yes, I’ve thought about that. Pity I just got myself setup on my iMac though! But … my old laptop is being refurbished, so when I get that back I could take it out 😀
what about going and working at some coffee shop like everyone else seems todo? u got a laptop?
How’s the body work going…I am eating better thanks to your reminder. Let’s keep it going…that should make you so happy and airborne.
@Nats … I’m gonna try it 🙂 (The coffee shop thing I mean. I’m so not good at starting my day over.)
Love ya too!! When are coming to The Dark Continent man? It’s been soooooo long!
sitting at a coffee shop by yourself is actually very relaxing. i used to take myself out all the time. part of the “loving myself’ practice.
dont forget you can start your day over any time!
love ya!
@cath … aaah, my friend! Yes, breathe … got a *bit* of air, but more is required methinks …
@BigFriendly … Coffee!!! Shoot, that totally didn’t pop into my befuddled head today 🙁
And what would we do without our darling kittykats hey? Thank goodness for their awesomeness … constant love and entertaining company.
VISTA!!! Oh my hat, it’s the end of the world!!!
@Po … huge mental, emotional and physical cabin fever. So right *sigh*. It’ll pass …
Hey, sounds like cabin fever. I find sitting in coffee shops alone just fine, it can be interesting watching the people go by. That may just be me though.
I made the offer before, and I’ll make it again. I would love to meet you for coffee sometime. I’m also inclined to get a bit house bound. I’ve just had a very scintillating chat to Annie, our one cat, about whether it’s safe to hang out laundry. So probably also need to get out and about, but ……………. I’m about to start installing Vista *gasp* on my computer so today is not good for me.
But Sue, we must do coffee!!
Breathe. And get some air. Mental and physical.
Love you X