Today is probably gonna be another tough one …
This afternoon sees me going to another Family Counseling session at the clinic with Son#1 and the Terrible Tag Team. This time however, there’s a new variable in the equation … the X!
I’m trying not to stress about it but OMG, I’m nervous as all hell. It’s been years since he and I were in a therapy session together and the memories are NOT good!
Me sitting there feeling helpless as he shoots me down and tells the therapist what a cold-hearted bitch I am.
Him pretending to be into the therapy when he actually has no interest in trying to fix us anymore.
Me wondering what the hell else I can do to try and save things, bewildered at his apathy (little did I know!)
Him playing games with my mind, twisting my words, taking events out of context, making me think I am crazy …
There is still so much between us that is rotten; so much that hasn’t been resolved. I have been able to see him person, yes, but it took me 2.5 years to reach that point. Since then, we’ve never been any deeper than a casual chat.
I just don’t know how it’s going to play out today.
Oh boy …
*breathe*
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UPDATE @ 5.10pm
I’m back … and I survived … and it really wasn’t that bad 😀
I didn’t flip out. I didn’t get all emo. I didn’t lose the plot.
I was cool, I was calm, I was controlled.
We went there to listen to our boy, to focus on him, to hear him out, to express our concerns and expectations.
And we did just that – we left our personal shit out of the situation …
It was a good session 🙂
Thats the way to do it! I’m glad that my little star wars comment made your day 🙂
MsBehavn … Thank you … and I AM going to be ok, yes 😀
I’ve had a few hours to get myself mentally prepared for this.
You’ve raised a critical issue – ANTICIPATION. The idea that it’s going to be hard is simply the result of my fearful anticipation.
BOLLOCKS to that!
*gives fear the finger*
I hate to say this but … you’re going to be okay. I honestly hope that today isn’t as hard as you anticipate.
Thinking of you xo
LOL @ Richard … I won’t deny that murder hasn’t crossed my mind before!! A woman scorned and all that …
Oh Cath, “my army” … hmmmm 🙂
You guys ROCK!
Thinking of you my friend. Never fear, your army is behind you X
Can’t you just shoot him and save yourself the anticipation and suspense?
Holy crap Steve!!! You wouldn’t have known this but that particular phrase, “may the force be with you” has a VERY special meaning in my life. Wow … that’s just about the most amazing thing you could have said!
well good luck! I’ll be thinking of you and your boy.
Good luck and “May the force be with you” 😉